I'm liking it here.
Even with the aches, pains, and necessity of exercise, this is the best time of my life. I don't have to see anyone I don't choose; I don't answer to anyone. I can bum around all day. I go to sleep in the first wee hour and get up at noon. I read for hour at night or I don't. I see some of my old colleagues from work and could tell them to go fuck themselves (but I'm not so angry anymore.) I have the leisure now to reflect on my feelings.
I won the lottery in a lot of ways. I was smart enough to earn a scholarship to college and to go to the Pennsylvania academy of fine arts. That was the best school for painting. To be able to paint is in itself a gift. Somehow at sixteen I chose a very good man to be my husband. Our children are highly intelligent good people and they return our love. There is so much more. I'm sitting on my family room sofa with one of my cats in my lap in our single house with a big garden in the back in the suburbs. Life is never perfect but I'm liking it.